ta TA ta TAU tai !!

what taun 2010 means yep TA?
like many TA,,, and many 2006 yg skrng berputar di otak
TA aku apa ya???
aduh gimana mu mikirin TA klo kamu sendiri ajo ga tau mau jadi apa, siapa aku bahkan masi susa krn abstrak, rada ga rela juga nih melepas status mahasiswa
dimana sebagai mahasiswa kita sah dan hak akan belajar dan slalu blajar... ga ada yg akan menjudge maupun menforce...
well, aku ga perna scara sadar menggambarkan diri sebagai designer fix or kerja di kantoran...
aku slalu memandang aku ingin punya toko ato resto, dan mengajar di sd tentang berpikir kreatif dgn gambar2 lalu jd dosen dan punya online shop/bisnis jd bsa kontrol dr ruma slagi ngurus sumai dan anak, trus pula punya toko kayak tidar yang isinya alat2 seni gambar
wow like that
so i never really imagine myself go through the process of working since i see myself not a workaholik kind a type,,, but i do love money but i prefer quality time soo... i mind with less as long i still gain my life right?
so then i again i imagine myself go s2, but where i dont know... maybe go to theory thing...
but i would like to learn web more deep... until i can make one,, loe one tooo...
hahahha
oh why is it that i cant imagine myself as a gamer or a someone lah yg sukses abis
bukan maksud aku ga pengen itu tp klo liat diri aku di masa skrng, aku ga punya kapasitas buat mimpi gitu dlm waktu deket,,, mukin jauh iya tp ga deket!
gini ajalah
faktanya
aku ga dapet bnyk lesson berarti dlm arti skill managment slama aku berkuliah
ya tentu jgn cry baby and ya blajar sendiri lahhh
tp yah masa gitu sih ya fasilitasnya?? oke skolah aku tmasuk design yg murah but,,, masa akhirnya modal yg dipunya cuma otak kreatif dan gimana pengembangan skill kita masing2?
ga adakah yg bsa dilakuin lg oleh pejabat tersohor di atas saya???
oh comon,,, you can do better lah...
i dont judge who should do better...
mukin mereka, mukin saya mukin siapapun
tp yg pasti,,,
blajar ga hanya proses tp fasilitas pendidikan nya itu jg mendukung menuju proses yang benar!

step out of the line

if i say,, usually i play the safe side, being safe and always safe
but again that is like not me for this life
saya mrasa uda kluar dr itu bahkan cukup jauh sampai aku hrs rem dan bilang stop. nafas. dan mulai lg. slowwww
arghhhhhh//

aku panik,
aku resah
haru gimana
mu gimana...

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bnyk arti...

do u smile today?

"Smile"
by michael jackson

Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...

If you smile
With your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...

Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...

If you smile
Through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile...

That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile



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how a pretender to be it is,
u keep smile even though your hurt torn to piece but again what can you do,,,
it seems the world is upside down and you have no idea why things are so happen to be this way
so i end up this way till the end of me...

dont break the smile, coz i'll just fall and cry...
you know that...
how fragile i am, you'll know...

hurts

it hurts to know that even i dont think that and i trust him apapun dia...
tp knp hrs menyinggung hal itu...
aku terluka,,,
prinsipal ndra is trust
if u dont trust me,,,
than apa yg hrs ndra perbuat buat bisa ngertiin dan percaya
kalo ndra tuh uda teramat sayang sama kamu sampe ndra labil karnanya
ndra terluka
terluka sayang...
dan ndra jd kesal sndiri dibuat kamu krna dipancing untuk cemburu...
padahal... ga hrs sampe sgitunya jg ndra tau dan ga akan cemburu gila karna masalah itu... tp kamu yang memulainya membuat ndra makin terluka....
yah bilang aja ndra labil
krn emang ndra labil dan sensitif masalah ini,,,

hard to see hard to get

being tough all i can say...
patient indeed is needed to say
but why is it so happened fast
like no other words
why cant i just say it

"aku sayang kamu"

need some time

time for peace/


melihat being centered
kadang manusia ingin berusaha lebih egois
which ga salah...
tp jd sdikit merasa ga peka ma sekitar
dan ada senangnya menjadi sendiri
tapi ada senangnya menjadi dua


ya namanya juga manusia...